a s h i k i n y u so f

so today fatin, dyane, donut, sam and i went to Mid V to watch Martian Child starring John Cusack and that cute boy. story is about a writer who had just lost his wife yearning to love someone who is still living in the world. so he adopted a kid against all odds. and the kid himself is odd, but he didnt miind that becos he was a freak himself when he was small so he thinks that he can relate to the child better. the movie is very warm, it makes you realize that kids are more shakespeare-y than adults. they see things the way it is, sometimes they do stuffs, i mean weeeird stuff as a way to escape reality. but in the end, we have to understand that they do that because they are trying to find security, they are trying to grasp to some real things, and they do not want to be treated like a disfunctioned toaster. they are just like us-they want to be loved, want to love, want to feel like they belong to someone.

so this boy, he said he do not want to take off the weight made of a belt of batteries because he do not want to float away fro earth's gravity. i think it is a cry for help. he do not want to be left. he do not want to be abandoned, and confused why the people who are very important to him went away from him. i dunno, its just sad. and to watch that kid from being so isolated to be able to show emotions, its just plain beautiful.=>


and you see, this kid is actually not helpless. LOVE is really a big thing. it changes people. it makes heart grow fonder. it makes the world kinder and safer. and despite all the hatred, it makes stars wants to watch the earth again. haha.i am being dramatic


and i like the color green here.=p


but this world, however, is not like in the movie. this world, even this place, is filled with too many hatred. it keeps too many betrayal and heart wrenching reality. this place that i am living is a twisted place. it hides too many secrets and conceals too many darkness that i am so scared to. all these bitterness, it can really push me and force me to creep slowly and hide inside my turtle shell. thinking about how trusts can be crushed in seconds, and how i only see true colours of people who i thot i already discover the tones when i least expect it really makes me feel ignorance is the only sanctuary.

but i wont let the bitterness scare me from the world.

yes, i learn my lesson. i think i am going to be more careful from now on. but i will never allow that bitterness of the world absorb into my ass and start being someone i do not wish to be. i will always be that person who cherishes the kindness in everything and everyone i see. (but of cos, u should not stab me on my ass first, or else u noe what on earth that i am going to do..hahaha!). but really.just be sincere, okay. it is not even hard.

hared really is not necessary. love is more calming. so just dont fight okay?

and plish dont be bitter. the world suffers enough without u being one. or i being one.

hehe..sgt merapu..i dunno how to say it act..but just do not fight. do not be bitter. just, love, okay?haha