breaks

i think i break many things lately.
even when it is not with me, i still break it.

yesterday morning i broke my beloved clay vase i placed next to my desk which i bought from Malacca. it is not shattered, thank god, but some parts of it has..broken. i might repair it by gluing.

and my snow globe, which was outside my room because i dunno who took it outside, pecah juge. it was thrown by my 2 year old cousin who threw tantrums over i dont know what.

see? the pasu, even though u sayang, sangat2 sayang, i can still break. i accidentally dropped the toner bottle many times on it. i did not mean to, but the bottle just sort of slipped and fall. but it had never crack. but yesterday, because i was too careless in trying to reach for a hairband, it fell. and break.

the snow globe, too, is something i quite love because i had kept it since my friend gave me when we were 13. i even snapped a picture of it when i first received it. the thing is hard, nobody expects it to break with a simple throw. because u see, the material is very hard. it had fell from a higher plae and in greater force but it i could not even see a litllest crack. i guess its been tumbling here and there for too long. it just lose strength from there.

last night i accidentally break his heart too. it was because we were talking about the raise of petrol price in Malaysia. i intended to call this situation a bulls***, but because i was not careful enough..dlm kate name lain careless, i hurt him sebab yela, macm tgh maki die lak padahal he did not do anything wrong at all. i did not mean to do it, but i was afraid what happened to the vase and the snow globe could happen to him too.

i was afraid that for something i did not mean to do i hurt people's feeling and it just won't show until it is too late, and breaks. only what breaks is not vase, nor the snow globe, but the heart.

so that was why i decided to rescue my perfume bottle from the hands of the destroyer (a.k.a litle cuzzy) when he was about to touch it. i do not want to see something else breaks. and up until now, it is still safely kept. =p. i wont let it break. mahal woo. haha

but really, i could save the perfume because i could see the possiblity of it being broken, so i can do something about it.

i wish the snowglobe and the vase could talk.

and to people who can actually talk (hehe...)..tell me if u crack ok?