slap slap and slap

u see, i am very lazy to buff my nails. there were countless times when i taunt my father to do it for me. sorry ayah =p. but once i do it, i'd be very narcisist. i couldnt tear my eyes off them. haha. i can already feel the word vain plastered on my forehead by now. =p

its late. i am suposed to be sleeping. yet i don't. blame it on my longgg hours of sleeping during the day. but u see, lying motionless on ur bed makes u think of things u would ignore during the day for whatever reasons it may be. as for me, the things i wont think during the day becoz they r not so pleasant and i am just too lazy to give a damn anymore.

last week, especially, is like a week full of dramas for me. but thanx to numbers of friends and my boyfriend, i came to think that heck..pedulikan jela. kalo layan sgt pun bukannya the worlds going to stop moving. life goes on, with or without these troubles. some of u can assume that i am sweeping some mess under the rug and just run away from troubles, but some things cant be solved with words. isn't it?

and these whole dramas made me realize that another side of me that had been hibernating under the blanket to resurface. my bluntness. i can feel myself growing evil once again, just the way i used to be when i was in high school. back during those years, i would never tolerate those who try to hurt me. i'd make them feel berry berrry sorry for pissing me off without reasons. i used to be very sadistic (that is what my friends would say) when i deal with these insensitive vixens yg kejenye hanyalah memberikanku saket hati yg teramat. maybe i matured a little, i mellowed a little with those people. i learn to act civil around those i hate. tp at least one thing never change, i never hate people for no reason. there's always an answer for my actions =]

there is something else too. i think reaching the age of 20 makes u pretty much different, in a way that i can not be consoled with an ice cream anymore to make me forget about things. i used to forget things over an ice cream until last year, but yeah, ice cream still soothes me up a little, but it doesnt change my perspective or stand about how i feel about something? catch my drift x?

and to those who think they have done something that might hurt me deeply *ahem*

do not think i can be goody2 with u if u have done sth yang outrageously bangang to me, ok? becoz i dunno if i might serve u a good slap on the face. i'll take my own sweet time to chill, and so should u.

haha kegarangan~