developed and changing

remember i blogged about what mahfodz told me months ago?

ok so now my mother mumbles the same thing. semalam after my package arrive n my mother saw me bouncing up and down hysterically so she asked, 'apebende tu?'

so i say it is the wedges i've been dying to wear kan. so she was like, ouh. and i noticed that expression since the day i arranged my shoes in the room for display lagi. she has this look on her face upon seeing my heels.

she went into my room to see the shoe. and she gave off the look once again. and she told me 'bila mak tgk semua heels tu it doesnt feels like you'.

me : why?
her: sebab dah biasa tgk awak pakai sneakers je pegi mana2. bila masanya awak pakai semua ni?
me : pegi kelas, pegi jenjalan pakai la. saya kuat bjalan. dok rumah je jadi pemalas ni. =p
her: hurm...xtau la kenapa. xde feel macam awak je. lain je bila mak tengok kasut awak ni (and her eyes landed on my pink heels as she spoke)

me: sebab dulu jarang pakai heels eh?
mak:aah

*silence....*

me : dah pandai jadi perempuan dah kot?
mak: xdelah. dah jadi wanita.

wow.

i guess she is worried of watching me grow. the same worry my father told me many times. but i told her i'm growing up. dah x budak2 dah. of course i'll do a lot of things from now on. even the ones she did not expect. tapi don't worry mak. i wont do anything stupid pun. well maybe some of them tapi still, don't worry.

i'm a big girl now !^.^!