the ramblings i could think of tonight

my emotions really mixed right now. i feel anxious about my luggage and everything. anxious and nervous. and lots more. i dunno. maybe i am excited too, maybe i feel scared mostly. i don't really know how i am feeling right now.

esok i'll be off to Kuantan and spend a night at my grandfather's place. so i will be disconnected from the net starting tomorrow lah. contact my digi number yeah. my maxis number xde credit. haha

well, i feel anxious, about everything. about starting a new life in a completely different land which i have never step my foot on. i'm up for the adventure actually. i know there is a lot waiting for me in Auckland. but i couldn't help but think how much i'll miss my room here, miss food, miss my friends. but it is one of my speciality for not thinking about what i dont have at the moment and try to make the best of the things i have.

and i feel anxious about my current state of health. i have runny nose, my voice is quite sengau due to the cold i am having right now. time2 kritikal mcmni la my body act up kan? lempang diri sendiri. isk. so i reaaaally hope things will get better soon. real soon.

and i feel nervous for a lot of things. i have been dreaming of myself with the suit on for so many days as long as i remember. i have been dreaming of being in the airport with my friends and family many times before. even my boyfriend used to be in the picture. but its no big deal that he couldn't be in the picture. really. haha.

i know i am writing incoherently but just bear with me once again. huuuu

i left most of my shoes. i left many novels i have. i could not bring many things i wish i could bring. but hey. this is the first challange i have to take kan. leaving all the stuff i love. or wish i can bring. i'm starting a new life with 20kgs limitation. thats the fact.

i may miss my hamster dearly after this. heck i might miss every single thing. but i don't care. i chose this path so i will walk it with flying colours! =D

so, Auckland, here i come!