ok so second post of the day

i know its only been an hour since i posted something but i can't really help it.

i am truly scared of whatever gonna happen to me after i finish my studies.

i just read my senior's blog posts. and believe me they are scary. their posts on their job especially made me rethink very hard if i am sure i want to do this. i mean i never really doubted it before. i was ok, in fact eager on becoming a teacher. but there are loads of things i never really thought about.

do i want to do this? one of the senior was the most high spirited person when it comes to teaching. she wanted to do this so bad that she does not mind a bit being placed in a school with every sort of odds waiting. but performing all the time had cost her big time, and she was even sure to quit. another one had been saying the same thing about the problem with seniority and stuff, which i hate the most. i hate it when you are not judged based on meritocracy but seniority. macam bangang.

i have some serious thinking to do.