screw insecurities

I have never thought i would have insecurities issues. i had always been so confident about myself, not caring (and blatantly dismissing) any negative comments made towards me. I was always able to tell myself that i am perfect the way i am, i do not need to change for anyone who doesn't love me (well maybe i can change my bad habits but yeah u get the idea), and look into the mirror and be so damn proud and thankful of what Allah has gifted me.

Turns out that I do care about words if that words came from the person i care and put so closely to my heart. The people i want to be nice to and could expect to get something nice in return, to be exact.

But having rationalized all the things and circumstances, I think I should be critical here. There's nothing wrong with telling me what you think is wrong with me. I'd still like to listen to some nice things before you proceed with something that might offend me.

The thing about me is, I constantly change. I might not care if you tell me I am fat yesterday because i think that is very well fitting. I did not work out probably, I could be eating tons of Kit Kats. Say that when i have been watching out for what i eat and work out, I'd be upset. I'm a woman and i guess i am one of the people who cares when ur telling them u look less than fat.

I understand it wasn't intentional, so I would try not to think about it. Hard, because I am vengeful that way. But I tend to forget so I'll forget it someday.

so yeah. I might appear cool and loofy at times, but to people who i hold dearly at heart, please be aware that I have my sensitive times too. Sorry >,,<

But i know i am okay now. I looked into the mirror this morning and my heart still swells with pride. ^^

so urm...what i was trying to say was

SCREW YOU INSECURITIES. you do me nothing good.