goldfish memory

its been a while isn't it. when was the last time i updated, i have no idea. i'll check the dates later.

lets just see whats up lately.

practicum.

we've filled in the forms with our posting state preferences. i chose Pahang, Penang and Putrajaya. Don't even ask me why cuz i sincerely have no idea why Putrajaya. Pahang, because its not too close to home and not too completely foreign. some parts of it, maybe. i am kinda wishing i'll get Kuantan so i'm still close to my family. i have my fingers crossed for kuantan, tapi mana nak dapat dapatlah.

and, the downfall.

i'll just refer it as the downfall lah. what i've learned is 1. never ever be arrogant. jangan perasan diri sendiri bagus sampai xmau mintak tolong orang lain even when i find myself in sticky situations. 2. i have friends who are more than willing to help if i'm in a deep shit so jangan kononnya xmau menyusahkan orang i keep quiet and keep it to myself x bertempat, 3. it's okay to fall as long as i get back up again. pandai jatuh pandai bangun, right? ^^

and......goldfish memory.

like seriously. the most recent happening was me having absolutely no idea how i left my samsung usb cable in eman's room. she told me its been there for a while, and i have zero idea how it ended up there. man. a friend suggested 'baca quran banyak2' and another thought i was too carefree for my own good. like its great where i tend to forget unpleasant things quickly, but this. me getting super unorganized and stuff is going to be the death of me. i'll go for kismis for now and try to read quran more.

assignment!

i have 2 due next week. wish me luck because apparently i need it. micro teaching is on 19th so i better type up my lesson plan nicely and draft it. send it to someone. think of ways i or anything else could screw it up so i'm more prepared ^^.

what else?

zombies. we had an english week. ike i said, shit happened and life became very hectic. but i got a grip and prioritized, do what i could and i still managed to stick around in choral speaking group. turned out, 4 practices and we won 1st place! XD alhamdulillah. got the message across but probability that we'll be kicked out from the hostel and into the streets is very high. meaning HEP is being an ass and told us to move out for the second sem. thing is they had only told us and made it official like...last 2 weeks?

IPBA's management sucks seriously. but this is beyond any moronic level i have encountered before. so they called us up for a 'meeting'. after being bashed they agreed to TRY finding us an alternative place to rent. we told them we'll only move on the condition that they have already found us a house to move.

it's probably very unnerving for people who reads this because my story is very fragmented. i'll try to be concise and summarizethe events.

in short, ipba wants us year 4 seniors to move out from the hostel to make room for the coming batch of PISMP juniors. they're moving in this july, and since its their policy that 1st year students must stay inside they want us to move. no biggie if we're aware at least 6 months prior. the problem is when they want to kick us out, without a notice, now. 2 weeks ago. we only have 4 months to go and we're only going to do practicum. we have no idea where are we going to be placed yet so we're not sure where is the best location to rent. landlords do not want to rent us their houses because we're only going to stay less than 6 months. some are willing, with extra charges. so where do we fork out money to pay a 600rm rent when we only get 600rm monthly? some of us do not get monetary support from parents.

and that still excludes daily expenses, practicum expenses, transportation and so on.

and they still dare to tell us to relax and only focus on our studies for now. they seem to need to be reminded that we cannot relax knowing we may be left out to die outside if we cant find a place to stay. or we may not have the cash to support ourselves. selfish people.

as for myself, i do not want to pay 600rm just for a place where i'll be in during nights. we'll be busy with practicums anyways. renting a house outside is pointless. not when u'r not going to be in the house.

but anyways. they promised to find a place, to work out a solution. i just cant find it in me to trust the HEP anymore. most that they do is to trouble students. i'm going to go house hunting