the difference between Miss Ashikin and Shikin

there is a lot of difference when i compare myself being with my friends, the boyfriend and in school. with my friends, i am usually more carefree and gedik. that is because my friends wouldn't judge me for being crazy. well probably they do. but i don't have to worry about being superior or being outsmarted. when i am with the boyfriend, i am ten times more gedik. that's just my own way of being affectionate.

with the people in school, its a lot different story.

with other teachers, i am usually extra polite. i have a lot of respect for them since they have tons more experience teaching and i am only starting. i am usually humbled when i see them. i admit there are some unfortunately who are not up to my expectations, but i do realize that even they are teachers to me, in the sense that they are teaching me what not to do.

with the school staff, i am extra nice. i put on my menantu kesayangan face and talk sweet. people who knew me might think that i was being pretentious. i wasn't, really. i was just being nice ;p

with the students...ehem
so far i have been strict when i need to be strict. i've been direct because i think i need to make myself clear. but i do remind myself to inject fun in the class cuz i don't want an adolf hitler style.  i can't say much about the effectiveness yet cuz it is only my first week teaching. my form 2 class is an extremely well behaved group of kiddos and i thank god for giving me that. i've been consulting a few people who could still remember what it is like to be in their shoes so i know how to react and to understand them a bit more.

i am nervous about the outcome of my prac. of course, i wish for the best. every night before i go to sleep i pray to god so tomorrow my lesson will be smooth and pray that He guides me. because i get set 1 kids, i pray hard to be able to improve their English. my biggest fear right now is that i am ineffective that their grades might go down and i will bring so much trouble for the next teacher to fix it. i try to work it with my students though, by constantly reminding them that its really okay to saythey don't understand me, if they need me to slow down or explain something again. i even tell them to knock on my door after school if they need my help.  oh yeah

fyi, i live in the school compound now. in the female warden room in the girls' hostel. it should be easier for me to continue watcing their development kan.  ;p

ada banyak funny incidents sebenarnya dalam kelas but i kinda forget things right now. nanti la update balik. hehe. later ta ta