the 2.26am post

wanted to call him tp he's sleepy i guess..he slept first.

and me?i do not really know what should i do but i intend on sleeping extra later than usual.haha.and i am sure that coffee wont do much help but i had it done. its only the matter of stuffing it inside my kerongkong je.

and i cannot help this topic from coming out and running wild in my brain.and surely enough, as stubborn as i may be, my brain cells are also as stubborn as hell. they wont listen when i yell 'stop thinking!' because it just continues to think.=<

and the thing that i cannot stop myself from thinking is that how am i going to be worried-free about how am i going to live my life after he terbang2 to japan.haha.its kinda funny actually when i give it another round of thots. because i am the one who used to mock distances.

we fell in love with each other and started dating when we were very far from each other. i was in KT and he was in Ipoh. so distance was never really a thumb down for me. it never was.

and when college started, it was a diff story.=p

so now i am sooooo used to seeing him every single week, or maybe at least once a weekend even tho our meetings usually took more than once a week. and even a weekend wont go well without seeing each other. mabok cinte betol. haha. then considering he'll be gone for 4 years, i think i have every right in the world to roll on the floor crying.

i really3 hate karma now.haha.thanx a lot for making me feel really stupid over 'miles doesnt count, what counts is the love' thingy. well, its true btw. but really, karma really have outdone me this time.

but u know what? i wished for this to happen. i prayed so damn hard for him to be able to study overseas. i supported him from the day he told me about petronas thing. and continued to support him the day he saw the JPA ad on the papers and the day he came down for the interview till the day i checked his results online.

and read this very, very carefully

that strong support is going to go on all the way when he is abroad, until he graduates, until we are married, till were old that no teeth at all left in our mouths and all of our white hair has fallen
and it might as well never end!

so there u go.i love you adzuan.=>