a s h i k i n y u so f

i just came back from kuantan this evening at around 7pm today. as i had already informed, i went to my grandparent's place for raya haji but nothing much happened on the day. i dont know why but i celebrated the day by going for a movie with my along and my younger bro mus. heran kan, others celebrate by watching the cows etc but not for me. i did something that is totally unspecial. i can be pretty ngokngek sometimes.huhu

but it was a nice day,after all.i did nothing but play congkak, watch tv and head for a movie in the mall.but never mind lah.it had already happened.haha

so today my along lost his watch at aki's place. (note: aki is a referrence to your granpa). and my ayah was quite upset as the watch actually worth a priceless sentimental value towards him and he planned on giving my bro another watch for a trade.haha.but along and i assumed that someone could have stolen it. i mean, a lot of people came to the house yesterday.the watch might be left outside.ala paham2 la what could happen then...

and now,at 1220 pm as adzuan is sleeping, i manage to think about my relationships with my friends.dun worry girlfriends,i never think negatively about u guys =p. i am thinking of how easy it is to lose a friend over something that i thought is silly.

like one really simple crush

yes it is true.losing a friend over one silly,silly crush.i hate feeling that i know my friend, and it turned out to be that i do not have any idea of what he is really about. when i thought that i know exactly what he is thinking about, i actually know nothing. and when it is too late, i can do nothing, i cant hold firmly to it, and fix things because when i finally know things, it have lost it. i lost my friend.

and i do not have any idea why i still feel the deepest regret inside for not being able to make things right in the first place. i cant help it but to feel that i have lost something valuable.something that i could never find again.

it happened twice this year, so it kinda made me start to wonder. boy, am i slow?

i hate it.

and i want it to go away.

far,far away.

like princess fiona's country in shrek.

ok enough with being all emo session.im going to bed.ta~