saya cranky bila pms

the song up there is just for my self pleasure. you can click it if you like. only if you like to ^^

kelip pejam kelip pejam mata its already 2 weeks of practicum. have i mentioned how i like my kids? they are getting a bit more bising and talkative today. i think that is great considering how i always felt like i was talking to the desk and the files stacked at the back of the class instead of people.

(maybe sebab semalam i cakap "if i like talking to myself, i wouldn't become a teacher. i think i'll become a mechanic instead)

(and i went 'ughhhh i hate you guys' when i thought they were half heartedly hollered at the mention of 'lets play a game")

(padahal memang they all jenis warak dan tawadduk and the teacher is simply setan kecil yang ajar anak2 suruh bising dengan cikgu and kalau boleh tanya soalan challenging all the time. i told them i dont like them being meek and passive)

so anyways. i probably will bore you with my school related entries later, but now, lets talk about this one thing that i memang cannot puas hati. guess.

on a second thought, no, dont guess. i'll tell you. its the attitude people. malaysian's to be precise.

okay. so we pride ourselves for being the people from the east who upholds values and as called in malay, nilai2 murni. we are supposed to be that sopan people, ramah mesra mcm nak gila and segala yang positif. tapi if you look at most of our faces, you know its far from true. i am not generalizing all malaysians are like that. however, most people that you meet on the streets are rude.

example one, look at the road. malaysian drivers are scarier than hammerhead sharks. dengan keluar simpang suddenly without caring if the approching car could brake in time, kalau senyum takpe. tapi lepas tu buat senyum kambing. your smile does not soothe the feeling of the person who you might have killed dumbo. apa ingat senyum lepas nak bunuh orang best gila ke apa? i would not even start on motorcycles.

tapi that example aside. lets talk a closer look at how malaysian react to each other when walking along a road, or a walkway. a narrow walkway. in schools for example. you do know how narrow it could be yeah? so usually when we see people walking towards us, isn't it only natural to look up and smile? that is the least you could do as a muslim, especially when you were the one teaching the students to greet you when they see you. but the level of ignorance of some people are just amazing. jangankan naksenyum,  pandang atas atau pandang the approaching person pun xbuat, how la we call ourselves the polite and penuh budi bahasa punya people?

we need to start looking at ourselves and our culture. people who works in public services, yang deal dgn orang hari2 xkan la xmau senyum. bukannya cantik muka kau scowling mcm tu. personally, i have no idea how people could manage to not smile at all when they are talking to someone else. its called being civil.

i should stop this. i attribute all this frustration to my hormones.

p/s: i am SO glad the dentist told me i didn't need to pull it out. better yet, ada cara lagi nak selamatkan dia utk masa laaaagi lama. oh yeah